Have you seen a circle? They never end. You can follow that line and keep going on forever without any hope of finding the end of the line. Never stopping, just running and following that line that will never end. Running in circles. No hope. No end. No release.
How am I suppose to escape this circle that my so called "parents" have put me into. You remember when I told you about my "mother", how she cries almost every night and her husband leaves almost every night because of it? Well, that's a circle that I have decided to end. I don't want to be here and keep running around this circle, thinking that everything will be okay in the end. Thinking that maybe one day something will change in the circle; that it won't be the same as the last thousand times we have gone around this hell hole. It doesn't work like that. Circles will always be circles and nothing will ever change them. That line will continue going and unless you get off that line, you will never see a change. No matter how much you hope and pray for it.
I'm changing. I'm leaving. I won't run in this circle anymore.
The only thing, is they don't know. I have to do it in secret, I'm sure they would never let me out of their sight if they knew my intentions. If they had their way I would be stuck here, in the circle, for the rest of the life. Never finding my true identity. Always being lost.
But that won't happen. I am gone.Tonight.
They won't see me again; hopefully that will stop her tears and his absence.
Everything will be better
No more running in circles.
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